I plan on using this space to talk about how I miss my brother more than you'll ever know. Every little thing I'll never get to say, all the times I cry, and memories few people will ever remember. That's not everything, but most of it.

I miss you Phillip. When Spencer opens my locket and knows that you are in there and I tell him that you love him, it fucking kills me. I can't imagine what you would have taught him, but I hope I'm doing you justice. I know you would have played his Thomas the Tank Engine video game until your fingers fell off. I also know that you'd have him playing wii bowling by the time he was 5. you would have adored each other.